Tuesday, 26 August 2014

Barbecue on the 18th

It was super hot on the 18th of August... like it felt like 40 degrees and with the barbecue heat, it was even hotter. We went to a river side in Futako-shinchi 二子新地. It was nice meeting a mixture of people - people from Japan (of course) China and Sweden. I actually got a headache so I probably wasn't the best company. But I enjoyed meeting people and and everyone seemed to have fun. My Japanese is so bad! People talked to me in Japanese and I was just like O_o 'もう一度言ってください' and kept repeating that and I think some people just gave up talking to me : ( need to study!! 

Oh well, good practice. 


In this photo.... I had lots of sweat droplets on my face D :


*eating a salad as I don't eat animals*




cute xD need to watch more One Piece!


Nom! These taste better than the Korean version... but they're more expensive, like 3 times (one is about 100 yen, whereas you can get 3 for 1,000won in Korea)




After we went to Karaoke where I got to hear songs I've never heard before in Shibuya : D 


Lots of dancing xD people seemed to have a good time and it was fun.

Ahhhh >.< did not feel like talking : ( only because my head was pounding by then. Mayumi, Midori and I went and did Purikura photos afterwards and then went out to a pizza buffet (my first time ever in Japan). I couldn't eat much because I started feeling nauseas but the food was delicious. It was a good day but would have been much better without the headache. 






And that was that :3 

I've been working all over the place for my school. I went to Hadano and I like that area. It's green and pretty. I'll take some more pictures next time *was getting dark*
 
  

Ehhh... don't put your name on the internet....


>.> ..... I'm sure it already is out there. This is the best mocha! (well, that I've tried in Japan so far). Oceania style, oh yeah xD 

 I like to think that the logo is a silver fern xD but it could be something else.
I love the new badges at work. I will no longer mistake Canadians for Americans (I can only tell them apart from how they say 'about'). Yay! But with my badge, as my friend pointed out, how many people are going to mistake me for an Australian? 

As for Doctor Who.....
Oh it's been too long! The latest Doctor Who was amazing and I loved the Victorian Steampunk style of the ep! I miss Matt Smith of course (and Tennant .. and Amy Pond... and Rory... and Rose.......) but I think I'm liking this edge so far. Peter Capaldi is great! Looking forward to watching more : D
 

Hurr... last True Blood episode ever D : what am I going to do with myself? Well, watch Doctor Who : D ..... still... TB : (

Saturday, 23 August 2014

I read 'The Book Thief' while listening to Coldplay's latest album. Now the song 'O' reminds me of Liesel and Rudy.... : ( and Hans... and Rosa... and Max......

Friday, 15 August 2014

Lilica: the junkyard mutt



Yokohama's Pikachu Invasion
























 

Yesterday I went window shopping before I came home. I got a kick out of hearing a grown man go on about how much he wants this Totoro thing (it was like, half a metre tall) to his girlfriend (or girl companion/ friend whatevs). She was kind of like *nods, tries to lead him away from the object if his desire* Omg he sounded like me xD I feel yo pain man.

Robin Williams

I was on facebook and saw the news (my status) 'No!!! No no no no! *gutted* damn. Goes to show that no matter how loved and talented, depression is not an easy battle to fight. I love his movies and his stand ups. I hope he has found his peace somehow : ( fark I wanted him to be dinosaur-aged, giggling away while making weird noises and happy with a drink beside him by the time he passed away. RIP Robin Williams.' 

I know he's a celebrity and I've never met him personally, but he was so lovable just the same. When he came to NZ, he donated the money he raised from the Christchurch show (during 'Weapons of Self-Destruction) to the Christchurch rebuild. 

And look: Robin and Koko

Like everyone else, I grew up with his movies. My dad kind of looks like Robin and would impersonate him too. 

He was honest, hilarious and had a big heart. 

150 Robin William jokes 








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I kind of hate grouping mental illness with Robin Williams. But because of his death, the ignorance about mental health is insane. 
I got that a lot when I had depression, 'oh, just don't think the way you do' 'focus on the good' 'if you kill yourself, it's the most selfish thing you can do'. And I see it on tumblr and facebook now: 'just get over it' or 'he had everything, wtf?' Or 'he should have gotten help' 

I cannot find the source but here's a comic of what it's like explaining depression and anxiety to someone who has never had it .


I like this argument: Suicide and depression are not selfish

The thing is, well for me, you can't enjoy the things you used to and you don't feel like doing anything, not even turning on the TV. It's like having a cloud over your head and you feel like YOU'RE the one living in the real world because you see it for as it really is. And for many people, that reality is even more harsher, severe, and a lot more painful.
Anyway, all those ignorant people that think you can just think it away, they prove they do live in a different world as they're incapable of understanding what it's like in a world with depression. They think depressed means the same thing as depression. Which only proves that it is possible to live in this world without feeling constantly gloomy etc etc. 

 My ex is a happy person. I mean, he feels sad, which is natural. But overall he is quite a positive person, like, ridiculously positive. But because of it he feels happy pretty often and has this drive for life and he's very lively. He's never felt sad enough to think about suicide (it's mind blowing to me). In fact, he wants to live for a very long time. And I think it's because he has a healthy mind and esteem. He's someone I look up to. 

 So, if you have depression, you don't have to live like that because depression is a chemical imbalance and it's treatable. Sometimes it takes a few different counsellors and different types of medication. Keep changing them until something works, even just a little. Sometimes it'll work for a while, then won't, then try different things again. Or even if it's not depression but something is debilitating you, whether it's from eating properly or from being able to stop freaking out etc etc.. same message. Or even if you don't have depression but think about suicide, get help because it could get worse.   

But work on being honest to yourself and to your doctor.

And fuck the people that are against medication etc. It's better to be on medication and feel okay than to feel like dying or overwhelmed in general or that you shouldn't eat and so on. 



I haven't taken medication for years but I still worry about it coming back even though I'll be better prepared if it does happen again. But all I can say is that my life now is very different from a few years ago. 

Quote *again, can't find the source* :
"If you look at the fact that you have a roof over your head, food to eat, that you are young and beautiful and live in a peaceful land, then no, you have nothing to be sad about. But the fact is, we are not only a physical body, we have souls too, and sometimes our souls get sick. If you break a leg you don’t just say “I have no reason to have a broken leg” and ignore it; you seek help. It’s the same when your soul gets hurt. Don’t apologize for being sad."

Monday, 11 August 2014

Yokohama Fireworks 2014

Have only been using internet on my phone since my last post. But I finally have internet on my laptop again! Wheee!

Last last weekend, I went to see the Yokohama fireworks with my friends.
It was a beautiful, warm summer's night in Yokohama. Some of the fireworks had smiley faces or hearts, others were just colourful. I spotted some bats flying around dusk but failed to capture a photo of them. They are so cute though! It was a wonderful night. We ate snacks while watching the firework display. 


The pikachu outbreak has already started, but this picture was taken 2 weekends ago in Cosmo World.






In TGI Friday


I am the Walrus...









This one looks like an elephant xD or some creature of sorts..








Finally trying Hundreds and Thousands chocolate! It's soooo good! I've nearly eaten a whole block. 

Speaking of chocolate, cocoa farmers trying chocolate for the first time: