Contrast to last post

It's really mixed up and I can't be bothered explaining but basically we're taking it slow this time and I'm very serious about being my own person and making my life go forward anyway.

So I've upped my dosage on medication because 5/10 for being the average is better than 2/10 but not quite good enough. So.. but yesterday was such a good day. I had an amazing night and I was lying in bed and I felt really happy. Like, I don't think I've genuinely ever felt this happy. I found things funny, I was happy I had finished and sent my Jet Programme application. I did get down earlier bowt spending my rent on food (but it's sorted now, I can JUST pay it) but I have food! I have eggs and milk and chocolate and vegetables and cheese. I have clothes I love like that bunny jumper (which isn't very warm without thermals but still!). I'm in a nice place. So yeh it was just really nice and it was warm outside because it's a spring-summer night. *sighs* it's not like I'm always like that but to be able to be that happy.. trippy ai